It's almost 4 A.M., I've been up since 2 A.M. not long after one adorable 5 year old girl came up to our bedroom saying she had a bad dream and daddy invited her to sleep with us which is something he's never done but just goes to show how much he cares for his family. I can only imagine he was thinking he didn't want me to have to get up with her or her to be scared. He's a big softy for his girls. I can't wait to see him with his son.
I am now 34 weeks and 3 days pregnant. This pregnancy has been the polar opposite of my pregnancy with LeAnne in many ways. I had morning sickness and food aversions with LeAnne but with Christian the food aversions have lasted throughout my pregnancy and change frequently. My nurse asked me this week how my pregnancy weight loss plan was going. LOL!! At one point she told me I had lost 17 pounds but I haven't asked lately what my total weight loss is. It's not fun being hungry but then no food sounds good and makes me nauseous but I have to say its nice not having food control me. My hope is after Christian is born I can work on eating healthy, take little man for daily walks to get some exercise and I can continue to lose weight. Another way this pregnancy is different is I am feeling everything a lot sooner and feeling more. Christian is very active! I love feeling him rolling, pushing, jabbing and kicking! Sometimes it does take my breath away. I've had a lot more aches and pains which the doctor says is just because my body is relaxing sooner since this is my second pregnancy. I have had a lot more sleepless nights due to insomnia and being uncomfortable. On a good note my blood pressure has been controlled very well and I am thankful to be on medication. I believe with LeAnne it was 34 weeks when I went on bed rest. At my weekly appointment this Wednesday my Non Stress Test went well. Christian behaved by being on the monitor and being reactive but my body on the other hand decided to act up. My blood pressure in the office was 180/100 so my doctor sent me over to the hospital Labor and Delivery for 30 minutes of monitoring. While resting my blood pressure did go down to numbers my Dr was okay with so he didn't increase my dose and asked me to take it easy and come see him on Friday. As boring as bed rest was with LeAnne I have kinda set in my mind that at some point in this pregnancy I would be on bed rest and now that isn't happening I am kinda bummed just because I am ready to focus just on taking care of Christian and my family. I am ready to take a break from my work responsibilities and I am exhausted.
I still can't believe I am going to have a son. I am really looking forward to seeing how parenting a little boy is different than parenting a little girl. I can't wait to see what Christian looks like. I can't wait to see him in his daddy's arms. I pray that he and LeAnne form a close bond like my brother and I did. When I got married I knew I wanted to marry a man who was a combination or my dad and my brother. I wonder if it will be the same for LeAnne. LeAnne is getting pretty excited to meet her brother. She boops my belly daily and today she kissed my belly for the first time. I am really looking forward to my baby shower this Saturday. I've told LeAnne she is my important helper and look forward to honoring her as a big sister. :-)
I pray that my labor and delivery goes as well as it did with LeAnne. Though I am expecting it will be different since this pregnancy has been so different. I pray I am able to manage the pain through using my hypnosis for birth techniques. I pray Christian is born without complications for either of us. I pray that nursing goes much smoother this time around, that he isn't a scream and sleeps well. I pray that I learned to balance life with two children and that I will continue to be the best mama to my kids that I can be. I pray that as Christian gets older I will learn how to instill a love for learning and caring for others. I so look forward to seeing the people each of our kids turn out to be. I pray that God will guide us through all the years of our lives as parents!
Now that I am finally getting sleepy I have to be up in an hour. Thank goodness tomorrow is Friday. Looking forward to a fun weekend.
