I've struggled with my weight most of my life. After I hit puberty the only time I didn't struggle with my weight was when I was working in Kentucky on a Thoroughbred breeding farm. The only reason I didn't struggle then was I physically worked hard 8-12 hours a day 6 days of the week. I began to struggle even more with my weight after I had my gallbladder removed in 2000. Being overweight runs in my family. I have PCOS (poly cystic ovarian syndrome) which makes it really hard to lose weight. I've tried so many different diets, but none of them stick. I always seem to go back to my old ways, what is easiest and my biggest obstacle is my own stinking thinking. I always get discouraged when I don't see results. I don't know why I think the weight should come off quickly because it didn't go on overnight. I know what needs to be done. I must eat healthier and exercise!
I am going to try new things. First I am telling myself this will not happen overnight, next I am going to move my body, then I am going to buy & prepare healthy foods (vegetables, fruits, nuts, proteins), and I have started taking some new supplements called Thrive. This supplement will give me vitamins and nutrients my body desperately needs, act as a appetite suppressant, give me energy, help me to burn fat, speed up my metabolism, help with my moods, and help relieve aches and pains. I have started walking in the morning after I drop LeAnne off at school and am drinking more water as well. I am working on making better choices with what I eat and working on portion control.
I say I am cautiously optimistic because I am afraid to be overly excited for fear of working myself into a high and then my stinking thinking gets the best of me again and I fail again. I want to make these changes stick. I want to develop new habits. I know it will not be easy at all and I will have to stick to my convictions. I know I have been thinking and eating like crap for a long time and it will be so easy to fall back into old ways. I am going to have to fake it until I make it. I am going to have to P.U.S.H (Persist Until Something Happens). I am going to have to pray because I can't do this on my own but with God all things are possible. I am going to have to change my thinking. It's so easy to say all of this now but I must keep it up when it gets tough. I think for me its going to be important to keep walking, to take the time to cut up fruits and veggies for easy meal preparation, to cook meat ahead of time to be able to grab for healthy lunches, to cut way down on sugar, limit starches and keep drinking the water. I am excited that I have walked a mile each day this week, drank more water, made better eating choices and I am feeling really good. I can feel the Thrive working. I am feeling a little sick once in a while (stomach ache and headache) but realize this is my body detoxing. I have filled it with junk for a long time.
I am so thankful to have the support of my amazing husband and family!